So I was doing some journaling tonight and I came across a passage that really hit me hard and convicted me.
Philippians 2: 14-16 (NIV)
“Do everything without complaining or arguing, 15so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe 16as you hold out[c] the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.”
God was telling me that instead of wasting all my time complaining about things that I need to get done, they will get done faster and I will have a greater sense of accomplishment when they are finished. Here lately I have been arguing with my parents about getting a tutor to help me with some classes. I am not doing well in the class but I feel like I can do it on my own. Wrong! The grade I recieved on my first exam, told me that that plan was not working out for me.
I feel like God is telling me to grow up and do it already. Instead of complaining about it like a child, grow up and get the help you need and stop arguing with everyone.
Kinda harsh, but it is way past due.
So the second part of the verse that says :
“you shine like stars in the universe
as you hold out[c] the word of life—in order that
I may boast on the day of Christ that
I did not run or labor for nothing.”
I feel like this is saying that if I put in the work now, it will pay off later. When the day comes when I graduate and have a degree in my hand, I will shine like stars in the universe and I will say that I did not run or labor for nothing. That all my work has payed off and here I am with my reward.
If I continue to do what I am doing now, I will might not every reach my goals. Yes, I might eventually graduate, but I will not feel like I have done anything. My work and my money will have been all for nothing. I know that if this is what God wants me to be doing that everything will work out for me.
He has a plan for me, and I need to follow him and do His will and not my own.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
